Let’s get a different perspective of people who have disabilities…..

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(This writing is inspired by my strong compassionate friend, written to be in their perspective)

I use to ask, how can I even live like this anymore?

I would see my friends running up to me. They were genuine and kind. I loved hearing about their day, but at the same time I felt this pain. I mean they didn’t even have to think about it. Moving is like breathing to them; where as I have to think about every move I make. Most of my range of motion isn’t my own. My body hired my legs for the job of walking.  But it seems like the Creator of the product had a different plan. God fired my legs and they got replaced by the wheelchair.

I asked God for awhile, why? You called me to love my neighbors as myself and to love you with all my heart, mind, and strength. But for awhile my heart grew weak at my situation and influenced my mind to slip away and compare myself to others.

Others don’t understand. They kept saying God made you to be unique, no two snowflakes are the same, or my favorite comment; that wheelchair does look like fun.

But I got dreams that are far beyond this chair.

Therefore, I chose to surrender; comparisons, people’s lack of understanding, and any bit of strength I thought I had on my own.

It took me a long time and I’m still learning that God didn’t make me this way to limit my contribution to the Kingdom. He made me to be a mighty warrior through suffering. It was only through suffering where I was shaped to be humble, meek, quick to listen, and the first to point someone back to God. I was made by Him, for Him, to further His glory. He is my strength now and forevermore. That is why I chose to surrender and choose to continue to surrender what was His in the first place. He fulfills my dreams far beyond what I could imagine.

Even though I have surrendered myself, I’m not joyful about being in this chair. I’m joyful in the discontentment that reminds me that this isn’t the end. It’s my daily reminder that the Kingdom is coming. Many people  live their life not even thinking about Heaven, what a shame. How merciful is my God who allows me to depend more on Him than myself? Many are spiritually blinded to the light of His glory, because they are physically able. I will try to reflect Christ’s light to their blindness through my day to day life.

So Satan, and all of Hell for that matter, I reject anything you’re trying to feed me that is filled with deceit.

The truth is I have found my calling. I am a mighty warrior for the Kingdom of Heaven, serving my Father who loves me more than I can fathom. “

I hope that this is eye opening.
Trying to understand another’s perspective is the first step to reflecting Christ’s love. God loves everyone and has made everyone for a different purpose. It’s not our job to look at people that are different as less than, because they are equally treasured by God. It’s our job to keep reminding them whose they are, God’s son or daughter whom He loves.

Human

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I am slipping further away from righteousness. I am feeding into the greed that my dark soul craves. When it gets a taste it hungers for more from the one who dances death instead of life. This Beast is energized by the shadows, harvests in the winter, and incites division between the Heart and the Mind. The Heart and the Mind were deceived you see…..

In the beginning the Heart was made pure, lacking in nothing. The Mind was in harmony with the desires of the Heart. Light use to burst from the Heart shining the path of righteousness. The Mind was under the Heart’s authority. Until the day came when the Dark started scowling at their relationship, saying how the Mind should be the ultimate authority. The Mind realized, with the Dark he could hide. He could be set free from the Heart that dictates his every move. Then the Mind decided to deny the Darkness, the Light was familiar and didn’t want to face a mysterious new way. However the Darkness was well equipped in negotiation and promised Knowledge that seemed to resemble the Light. Just as horrible as a man leaving his wife for another, the Mind left the Heart for Darkness. As soon as the Mind committed adultery against the Heart, the he realized the Knowledge he gained was nothing like the comfort of the Light. He now understood, that there was no turning back. The Light got dimmed in the Heart as it shattered into thousands of pieces. Abandonment, Loneliness, Deceit, Rage, Revenge, and Grief tried to put the Heart back together again. They bandaged the Heart in Fear that made the dim Light flicker to extinction.

The power of Knowledge the Mind thought that he would gain by leaving the Heart was swallowed by the Darkness. It’s gluttonous nature kept feeding at the discontentment, anxiety, pain, and continued to take away any chance of righteousness.

I keep pretending that this is a story that happened long ago and that it can’t apply to me. The reality is that my Mind still wanders into the Darkness. I have become use to the fear that wraps tightly around my Heart. Has this beast won? Is righteousness dead?  

The division of the Heart and the Mind was only part of the story. The ending has not come yet but the hope of a new Light to Righteousness has been revealed.

As soon as the Darkness thought that it had killed the path of Righteousness, Love came down. Love tore up the bandage of fear that wrapped the Heart. Love illuminated the pieces of the Heart and fused them back together. Love split the Darkness in half and rescued the Mind from the belly of the Beast. This gives a chance to start again to the path of righteousness. After the great deception, the Heart can only pump blood on it’s own. It can’t produce Light. The Mind cannot follow the Heart if there is no Light and will fall into the Dark.  I found out that I can only get this Light if I choose to deny the hunger of the darkness and accept the only thing that can satisfy the soul. Love.

Hopes for the Future

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Do you ever feel like you are stuck in the present? Or that the present is holding you back from something great?

“I can’t wait for next few years when I have my life together.”

“I just want to start in my career now.”

“Can’t I flash forward and be married with a family already?”

These are things that I’ve heard around. Personally for me I am always planning my future. The near future and the future down the road. I have a joke with my friends that I am a pre-planner. That I have to have my whole life planned out, no surprises.

I want to share some of the blame on Target. It’s right after New Year’s and you know what is in the dollar section, the candy isles, and the clothing area? Valentine’s Day cards, gifts, candy, and apparel.

It’s what prompted me to start planning for Valentine’s day in the beginning of January. It was over a month ahead and you can believe that my friends were confused. Maybe society tries to push us to think in the future, which isn’t always a bad thing.

For example we encourage people to get any kind of insurance just in case of an accident or health problem. Or Banks encourages people to open up a savings account just in case you need the money for later.

However when we try to plan ahead so much and grow up too fast it’s like skipping an important step. Let’s break it down.

Cookie dough is amazing. Cookies that are fully done are amazing. But if you try and take the cookies out of the oven before they are done they taste DISGUSTING!

Same thing happens in life. When you are in the here and now, you are a great bowel of cookie dough. But when you try so hard to be a cookie you mess with the season you are actually in your life. When that happens you will never be satisfied or as satisfying as a fully done cookie.

To be in a job that I love I must first be passing my classes in college. Then I get the degree, then I get the job. But if I am not satisfied with where I am at right now I am not getting the joy of the journey. I’m also thinking that having a great job is the end of my growth, which is also false. Unlike cookies, our goals that we obtain are not the end of our life. We keep developing and once we reach a goal we make a new one. We also need to get out of the mindset that we control the end result, when in reality God is the one who knows it all.

To wrap things up. It’s okay to have goals and plans for the future, but don’t forget the here and now. Be happy with being cookie dough. Don’t try and rush things before it’s time.

“For still the vision awaits its appointed time; it hastens to the end—it will not lie. If it seems slow, wait for it; it will surely come; it will not delay.” Habakkuk 2:3

Let the Rain Fall

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This is a work in progress blog. My name is Megan Raines. I am a sucker for puns that’s why my blog username is Megan-a-Blog and why there are water references. I will be pouring my personal thoughts into this site and whether you relate to them or not is up to you.

FYI: I would be nowhere without Christ. He gives me the strength everyday to be joyful in all times.

Stay tuned for future blogs.